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--Xinnie--August 05 Tough Decision Making TimeA minute ago, I have made a decision I have been struggling to make.
I have chosen to give up IPR and go for PM after a 44minutes phone chat with Julian. A grown up who provided me with many cruel truth of the reality and how things should go about. He is a finance-a/c person...counting, evaluating every penny he spends...and the worthiness. Haha...I think I have a lot to learn from him. Constantly climbing up the ladder...My heart is at ease now...
It was a hard decision too, handing in my resignation letter. I have always wanted to post something about my current job. I went for a holiday on the 14th July - 22nd July. As soon as i resumed work on the 23rd, unexpenctency does happen...Angie, my senior colleague, has given birth...about 3 weeks earlier. GOSH! MEsS! Alright, I haven't been so busy before...Fully OCcuPied....Feeling satisfied and fully utilized! So happy...even though I may not have done a good job but I do hope i have helped my HOD in tackling PR matters at the best possible. Being so fully occupied, I felt a bit "ngm sheh dak" to leave my current company. But sigh, nevermind, decisions has been made. No turning back. Sorry to leave RW when they are in need of a PR...Will try my best to settle everything before I leaves.
Angie: I understand your position now when I am trying to brief the new management trainee.
At the very beginning, I kept asking you whether there are things for me to do besides all those stuff. All the liaising, dealing with artwork+amendments+deadlines, is a bit hard to be passed on to someone who did not follow from the very beginning. You have passed me all the emails etc slowly...and even you went on leave suddenly, I have to try to tackle everything, it was not that hard...(okay one mistake with CD+100)...managed to try to handle things.
Then now, I really do not know when and how to start briefing the new staff...how how how? Will he be able to handle? I love doing the things i am doing now...but sadly, it's only a beautiful 2 weeks.
Aiya, lazy to type liao...dunno what i'm trying to say..... July 08 what's my priority?Today, had a quick chat with Shin, she asked me, are you sure you want to come back and study for 2 more years? By that time, everyone will be gone, graduated. My answer for her is, I'm not there just only for them, I'm there for myself. Friends is important for survival when we are so far away from home..However, I do enjoy the part where I am more independant. Friends come and go...Nothing ever last in this world except the love within a family (Parents+Kids). A reality that I hate in life. Even a person whom you thought is your best friend, someone who is portrayed to be a very thoughtful and understanding person, could also betray or hurt you.
Alright before I go out of topic again...I would like to recognize my priorities. MK said to me before, why would I wanna be far away from my family? It would be good at times of uncertainties for a family to be together, spend more time with each other. He said to me, "should any mishaps happen and I can't be there...I will regret for the rest of my life for not cherishing time I could have been able to spend with family".True enough. I've posted this QQs on facebook. I think i roughly asked something like "Stay with family? Or Work overseas faraway from your family?" Many melb friends answered "WORK"...for our own future, in a better country. We'll always get time to spend with our family..during holidays. Both choices, will have its own regrets. Different culture, Different thoughts.
My family has always been my top priority especially years overseas, I do cherish them even more. Therefore, I tend to spend time at home more than out nowadays. However, besides that, I am not happy at all. There are many options i could choose, but I just need to work out what i want and the courage to go for it despite any obstacles. July 04 Upset..Upset... HeheWell, last night was meant to be a OK-normal-happy night. And my close friend in Melb was supposed to call me, however, we have no fate hehe...All calls couldn't get through or I couldn't hear her voice(MSN/Mobile)...So we ended up type-chatting on msn. She has shared with me her plans to stay in Melbourne (which she did not intend to) and things like that. When I thought I have let go of the thoughts and hope to go back and start my new life here, things just have to struck me again. I felt so down, so sad I have missed the chance. But I can't blame anyone.. No one to blame..Just myself for confusing myself. (oh my god...i know what i'm saying here doesn't make sense). Then had MK to cheer me up for about...an hour or so? IF i hadn't BLURT everything out I would've been fine.
Anyway, I will try to let go...Focus on building my own career.... and probably there are better things waiting ahead of me. (Lame...)
June 26 time for a new start ?This week, been struggling with thoughts of "Should I quit?" and go for the better offer? Talked to a few people, including my supervisor i would call her to be. It was nice chatting and getting those advice from them. Some said "Considering the pay and current market inflation...Why not?"
"Hmm, why not stay on to learn more..have you learnt enough?"
"Is the new job what you want?"
"Small company good...can learn everything cos there is no one to turn to etc."
However, I was also thinking that, if i stay on, I'll definitely learn to handle more things etc since most jobs required working experience to move on. The new offer is titled "marketing" which means in the future everything will revolve around marketing. Well, then I have a thought, why haven't I try PR agencies? Since that's the purpose of me studying PR. I am not sure if i am good enough but i'll definitely give it a go to see if I am lucky enough to land on any offer. I guess i need to start somewhere to build my career. OMG, I hope so...
June 25 ResignToday, or just now, I have talked to my manager that I would like to resign due to better offer from elsewhere. The thought of it is easy but after that, I started to feel that I'll miss this company and the people. Though I have not been working here for long and just started to get used to the environment and workload...but everything here is not too bad la. Recently a few colleagues have resigned too. OMG I felt bad about being the first one to leave a company so fast haha. In fact this is not a bad start for me, but I have started off with a un-decided mind...which has then affected my performance at work. And I felt bad for disappointment my manager too..... So.....I guess I should go for a new start....... June 23 What's wrong with single life?Yesterday, I was chatting with a friend of mine. I know that he has constantly been "searching" for a girlfriend ever since his last break up around end of last year (maybe DEC)...don't know...but anyway, I met him around Feb/Mac and knew he has a liking for me at that time but I was attached and showed no interest...we stopped meeting for a while and through his nick, I could tell, he has non-stop, trying hard to get a GF. So yesterday we were chatting and I asked how he has been getting on and he said UNHaPPY. So I was like why?! Then he said no GF. I was kinda like.....SO? What's the big deal? Last week, I was supposed to post a writing saying I WANT TO BE SINGLE...coz reminisced those being single time, when i was free to do this and that, no commitments, able to think about my own life etc. Even though, from time to time, i might wish I have a bf too but not having one made me a stronger person. Furthermore, i'm more like in a relationship that doesn't really exist (LDR). Anyway, back to his story, so i sounded a bit furious when I replied him...What's wrong with being single, I'd rather be single....It's so nice getting to hang out with friends. Why force yourself to constantly searching for a gF? .........Then he said BORED>.very boring, sit at home...Then I said, It's nice to have time to yourself...to do your own things... find friends to yum cha etc. HE seemed more like needing a GF to fill up his time of BORINGNESS! or probably to GET OVER HIS EX. Even though i'm in a 'relationship' but I'm also at home almost every night, WEEKENDS etc. i'm also alone but i have my family...we're always together at night and I enjoy spending time with them esp being away from them for so many years. Well, it is boring at times, but I usually get time to chit-chat with my dear at night...And to make things worse...all my gfs are not here.......... SIGH......AND he has all his "heng dai" here...to keep him accompnied...why don't he just enjoy his time with his 'heng dais' that he has missed out when he was with his ex who has controlled him soo much, banning him from joining his friends etc etc.... |
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